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Secrets from a Happy Marriage
(HQN)

© 2020 Maisey Yates

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Anna thought that her face might break. She had been smil­ing for the past two hours. Standing on this damp grass, her shoes sinking into the muck, the mist clinging to her hair and her grief clinging to her body like another skin.
 
And over it all, she wore that pastor’s-wife coat.
 
It had been the most important thing she’d put on this morning. Not her black shawl and black pants. Not her black boots.
 
“They need reassurance,” Thomas had said right before they had walked in. And the way that he looked at her - stone-faced enough that she thought he might finally have noticed the distance between them.
 
She couldn’t remember the last time he’d touched her.
 
Even when they’d walked into the funeral, they had done so side by side, with a healthy amount of space between them.
 
It felt like a metaphor for their marriage.
 
For her.
 
She’d gotten good at separate.
 
A kick sparked in her heart and she tamped it down, be­cause she was here to be the pastor’s wife, not to think about anything else. She was here to support her sister, not to think about her own marriage.
 
But the loss of her sister’s husband had her thinking about marriage. And even more, about Jacob himself.
 
Jacob was way too young to be gone. She wondered if he’d ever felt like a soul trapped in a body that didn’t do the things he wanted, didn’t do the things he craved.
 
Because she did.
 
She did, and she wasn’t even sick. And it felt like an insult to his memory.
 
“Thank you for coming,” she said to two of the guests who were getting ready to leave.
 
“Thank you,” she said to someone else, who looked at her tearfully.
 
“Are you all right, Anna?”
 
“We will be,” Anna said.
 
“I’ll pray for you.”
 
It kept on like that for the next hour. Greetings and good­byes, platitudes. She could think about entirely different things, stand there and smile, and say everything she was supposed to.
 
And her soul was bursting to escape.
 
She looked over at her mother, who looked like she’d aged years overnight. Which was something that Wendy McDon­ald would definitely not appreciate if anyone breathed a word of such a thing in her direction. Wendy looked over at Anna, and there was something far too perceptive in her mother’s gaze, even through the haze of grief.
 
Anna always felt like her mother could see it. That no mat­ter how hard she tried to behave, her mother could see that there was something struggling against all of this inside her, and it made her feel transparent.
 
She had often thought, if she had to choose an era of the lighthouse that had the most relatable history to her, it would be the time it had played host to seventy American soldiers. Because she often felt like up here on the hill, she was keeping her head down and keeping up a brave front, while in reality, she always felt like she was about to be buffeted on all sides.
 
Dramatic, perhaps.
 
But, particularly as a teenager, the drama had suited her.
 
“Thank you so much,” she said.
 
“Can I do something for you, Anna?”
 
Anna jolted. She realized that she knew the woman that she was talking to more than just in passing. They went to several Bible studies together at church. Laura. Who was al­ways friendly, and always seemed like she might want to spend more time with Anna, but Anna had been spending less time at church things and more time at the Lighthouse Inn.
 
“No,” Anna said. “I don’t need anything. Rachel… I’m just concerned about her.”
 
The lie tasted bitter on her tongue. But she lied a lot now. By omission. Without words. With a smile.
 
She couldn’t remember the exact moment she’d stopped feeling guilty.
 
“Of course,” Laura said.
 
“Thank you for asking.”
 
“If you ever want to go to coffee…”
 
“Sure,” Anna said, not meaning it. “I’d love that. I’ll… We’ll talk. When everything settles down.”
 
“Okay,” Laura said.
 
She had an overwhelming revelation - Anna realized that things would settle down again. That everything would go back to the way it was, just with a hole where Jacob used to be.
 
This event, no matter how shocking, difficult and intense, had not changed her life.
 
She was still the same woman in the same marriage. The same woman, trapped because whatever she felt in her heart, she had restricted herself so tightly she couldn’t quite find a way to make the moves that needed to be made.
 
It was only at the Lighthouse Inn, where she had been a girl, where she had run wild and barefoot through the lawn, that she was able to find that spark in herself still.
 
She looked toward the Captain’s House, and something new sparked inside her. Not habit. Not familiarity.
 
Determination.
 
She was not ill. She didn’t have an excuse. The only person who was keeping her trapped was herself.
 
And she thought it might be time to make a move.

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Photo Credit: Kerry Shroy
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Maisy Yates is a New York Times bestselling author, living in rural Oregon with her three children and her husband, whose chiseled jaw and arresting features continue to make her swoon. She feels the epic trek she takes several times a day from her office to her coffee maker is a true example of her pioneer spirit. 
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